Chapter 7 - What the Letters Said

I stayed until nine that night. We got food from the facility kitchen — soup and bread, the kind of meal that doesn't ask anything of you — and we sat at the little table by the window while the sky went dark and I read the letters.
Not all of them. She opened six. The ones she said mattered.
The first was from Marcus. Dated three weeks after my father's funeral. Handwritten, which threw me — I'd expected something typed, something calculated. But it was there in a slanted, impatient scrawl, and the warmth in it made my skin crawl precisely because it was so well built.
I've been thinking about Dad. About all the things we never said. I'd like to put it right, if there's still room for that. I'd like to meet my sister properly. I think we could all use family right now.
"He knew exactly what to write," I said.
"He always does."
The second was her answer. Measured. Careful. She told him there was no estate worth mentioning. That I was getting by on my own. That she was moving into assisted living and money was tight.
The third was his reply. The warmth was still there, but something had moved in underneath it — a pressure, a direction. He brought up the forty thousand. Not as a debt. As "shared history." As something that had never been settled properly. He said he wasn't asking for anything, only that it seemed wrong the family had broken apart the way it did, and maybe a gesture of goodwill would help everyone heal.
"He called blackmail a gesture of goodwill," I said.
"He's very good at that."
The fourth letter was from Sharon. I read it twice.
It was dated eleven years back. The handwriting was neat and a little cramped, like someone who'd rewritten the same letter several times before landing on words she could live with.
She wrote about meeting Marcus. The first few months. How he'd made her feel, for the first time in years, like somebody was actually interested in her life. Then the slow shifts — small requests, small pressures, small tests of what she would and wouldn't do for him. Then the morning she got home from work and checked the account.
She didn't write the number. She just wrote: everything.
At the bottom, in slightly different ink, like it had been added later:
If something happens and I stop writing, please don't come looking. It'll mean I decided it was safer not to be found. I'm sorry. I hope you understand.
I put the letter down.
She didn't say anything. She just watched me.
"She knew," I said. "She knew he might find out she'd written to you."
"Yes."
"And she wrote anyway."
"Yes."
I thought about what it costs to send a letter you know might put you in danger. About the kind of person who does it regardless, because the other option is silence.
"We need to find out what happened to her," I said.
"I've wanted to know for eleven years."
"I mean now. This week." I looked up. "I've got a colleague — a paralegal, she's good at tracking people down. If Sharon moved and started over, there's a record somewhere. New address. Name change, maybe. Something."
"And if Marcus finds out we're looking?"
"He's already here. He already knows the payments are done." I folded Sharon's letter carefully and set it with the rest. "We're past the point where being quiet keeps anybody safe."
She was quiet a moment. Down the hall a door shut. A TV murmured through the wall.
"There's one more letter," she said.
She reached into the bag — not the envelopes, a different pocket, a small zippered one I hadn't noticed — and took out a single folded sheet. Older than the others. The creases were soft with age.
She held it out. "This one's not from Marcus. It's from your father. He wrote it six months before he died. He told me to give it to you when I thought you were ready."
My hands weren't quite steady when I took it.
May you like
"What does it say?"
"Read it," she said gently. "I'm right here."