Chapter 8 - The Letter That Finished It
Paula sent the letter on a Tuesday. She called after to tell me it had been received, and that Doug's attorney had asked for forty-eight hours to respond.
"That's a good sign," she said. "It means they're talking behind closed doors."
"What do you think they'll do?"
"Settle. Fast and quiet. The email to Brooke is the piece that changes the whole board — that's potential interference with a legal proceeding. His lawyer knows it. Doug knows it."
"And the expense records?"
"Different matter, but they're with his employer's HR department now. I sent them over as required under the disclosure agreement." A pause. "That train's left the station. Nothing you or I do stops it now."
I thanked her and went for a walk.
Cool morning, the kind where the air still has some weight to it. I walked the loop I'd been walking for three months — down to the end of the street, left along the park, back around through the neighborhood. I'd started it the week Doug left, mostly because the anger needed somewhere to go.
I thought about the girl I'd been at sixteen, sitting across a diner booth from Doug, dead certain he was the person she'd build a life on. I wasn't angry at her. Wasn't sorry for her either. She did the best she could with what she knew then.
My phone rang as I turned back onto my street.
Doug.
I answered.
"I got the letter," he said.
"I know."
"Lorraine." His voice was different from anything I'd heard out of him in months. Not angry. Not working an angle. Just old. "The things I said about you. At the office. To the kids." A long pause. "I was scared. I know that's not a reason."
"It isn't."
"I know. I was trying to protect myself and I went way past where I should've stopped. I said things that weren't true. I'm sorry."
I stopped walking. I was standing at the foot of my own driveway.
"I appreciate you saying it. I do. But Doug — an apology to me doesn't fix it. You go back and correct the record. With Aaron. With Kristen. With every person at that office who heard those stories."
Silence.
"That's what I want," I said. "Not for me. For what's true."
"Okay," he said. Quiet. Like something going out of him. "Okay."
"And the settlement — your lawyer knows what's fair. Let her do her job."
"Yeah." A breath. "Yeah."
I went inside, made tea, and sat at the kitchen table where the pages had been spread out that Sunday. The table was clear now. Wiped down. Clean.
Forty-eight hours later, Doug's attorney called Paula with an offer.
It was fair. More than fair — it included a written acknowledgment of what I'd given up career-wise during the marriage. Paula said she'd never once seen a respondent agree to that without a fight.
I signed on a Thursday afternoon. Paula shook my hand across her desk.
"It's done," she said.
I drove home. Stopped at the store on the way and bought things I actually wanted — good cheese, a fresh loaf, a bottle of wine that cost more than I'd have let myself spend a year ago.
At home I put the groceries away. I opened the wine. Poured one glass, set it on the kitchen table, sat down.
Through the window the last of the evening light was sliding across the backyard — the yard I'd planted and weeded and kept alive for twenty-seven years, and that was mine now, free and clear, no asterisk.
I picked up the glass.
Somewhere in the house, my phone buzzed.
I let it.
For the first time in longer than I could remember, I didn't need to know what it said.
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