Chapter 8 - The Crooked Patch
Caleb was asleep by eight-thirty.
He'd eaten two bowls of the pasta he always asks for, taken the longest shower I've ever heard come out of that bathroom, and passed out on the couch before the end of whatever show he'd put on.
I carried him to bed — he's almost too big for that now, all knees and elbows — and pulled the blanket up to his chin. He didn't stir.
I stood in his doorway for a long time. His backpack on the floor. His one sneaker's mate by the door. The Spider-Man poster he'd taped up two years ago, one corner curling away from the wall. I'd meant to fix that a dozen times.
I went in and pressed it flat. It held.
Then I made tea I didn't really want and sat at the kitchen table with the jacket folded in front of me. The crooked patch. The slanted stitches, because I'd rushed the needle through while a seven-year-old stood at my elbow asking is it done yet.
My phone sat on the table. It had been quiet all evening.
At nine-fifteen it buzzed. Sharon.
I looked at it a while. Then I picked up.
"He's home," I said. No hello.
"I know." Her voice was rough. "Paula called me after the hearing. I wanted to give you the evening before I bothered you."
"Thank you for the statement."
"It was the least I could do." A long pause. "How is he?"
"Asleep. He ate. He seemed lighter once we were back in the house. Like he'd been holding his breath for a month and finally let it out."
"He's a strong boy."
"He is."
Quiet on the line. Not the uncomfortable kind. The kind that comes when two people have already said the hard things and don't know yet what's supposed to come next.
"Sharon," I said. "I don't know how we come back from this. I want to be honest with you about that."
"I know."
"But I'm not going to keep Caleb from you. That's not who I want to be. And it's not what he needs."
She made a sound that wasn't quite a word.
"He asked about you," I said. "In the car on the way home. He asked if he could still see Grandma."
The silence that came after that one was different.
"What did you tell him?" she asked. Her voice had gone very small.
"I told him yes. That we'd figure it out."
She didn't speak for a moment. "Erin. I don't deserve that."
"No," I said. "You don't. But he does."
I heard her exhale — long and unsteady, the sound of something that had been held too tight for too long finally letting go.
We stayed on the line a little longer without saying much. When we hung up, the house was quiet.
I folded the jacket carefully and set it on the chair by the door — the one where Caleb drops everything the second he walks in. In the morning I'd wash it and hang it back in his closet.
The Spider-Man patch was still crooked. I didn't fix it.
Some things you leave the way they are, because the flaw is the whole point — because it means a boy was climbing a fence and tore something and came home and asked his mother to fix it, and she did, badly, while he bounced on his heels going is it done yet, is it done yet.
I turned off the kitchen light. Down the hall, Caleb breathed slow and even in the dark.
I stood there and listened to just that sound for a long time.
Then I went to bed. And for the first time in a month, I slept.
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Sometimes the people who are supposed to protect our children are the ones we have to fight the hardest — and sometimes winning means forgiving someone you never thought you could.
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