Chapter 4 - One Hour With My Son
I didn't sleep that night. I sat at the kitchen table with a cold cup of coffee and my laptop and a legal pad, and I wrote down the name of every family law attorney within forty miles.
By three in the morning I'd left voicemails for six of them. By five I'd filled four pages — every date, every detail, every conversation I could pull out of the last fourteen months. The morning Dylan left. The night Caleb asked me why his dad never called on his birthday. The afternoon I lifted the lid on that trash bin.
At nine-fifteen I was parked outside an address Dylan had texted me — a rental in Eastgate, a subdivision I'd never had a reason to drive through. Fresh curtains in every window. A basketball hoop bolted over the garage that hadn't been up long enough to collect a single water spot.
At nine-fifty I knocked.
Alyssa opened the door. She looked at me the way you look at a problem you've already built a plan around.
"He's in the kitchen," she said. "He knows you're coming."
I walked past her without a word.
Caleb was at the kitchen table with a bowl of cereal he wasn't touching. He had on a shirt I didn't recognize. Someone had cut his hair much shorter than I ever kept it.
When he saw me, he stood up so fast the chair screeched across the tile.
"Mom."
I crossed the room and wrapped him up. He pushed his face into my shoulder, and his whole body was shaking — not crying, just shaking, the way you shake when you've been holding something clenched for too long and finally get to set it down.
"I've got you," I said. "I'm right here. I'm not going anywhere."
"I didn't want to go," he said into my shoulder. "I told Dad I didn't want to. I told him you didn't know."
I pulled back just enough to see his face. His eyes were red-rimmed — not from right now, from days of it.
"I know that now, baby. I know."
"He said you did know." Caleb's voice wobbled. "He said you told him it was okay. He said you needed a break from me."
My hands tightened on his arms before I could stop them. "He told you I said that?"
He nodded. "He said you were too tired and you needed some time and that you'd call me. And then you never called."
"I called every number I had for him, Caleb. Every single day. He never picked up."
Caleb looked at me for a long moment, deciding something.
"He took my phone," he said quietly. "The first night. He said it was a screen-time rule. But I heard him tell Alyssa after, and she said it was better if I didn't have it for a while."
The kitchen was dead silent.
Alyssa was standing in the doorway. I looked at her over the top of my son's head. She didn't look away.
"He told a ten-year-old that his mother had signed off on this," I said. "He took his phone so my son couldn't reach me."
"Family transitions are complicated," Alyssa said. "Children need reassurance and structure."
"Don't call it screen time. Don't you dare stand there and call it screen time."
Dylan appeared behind her. He'd been in the hallway, listening.
"Erin, this isn't the place—"
"You told our son I gave him away." I straightened up. "You told a scared kid his mom said it was fine. That's not a custody dispute, Dylan. That's a lie you fed a child so he'd stop fighting you in the car."
Dylan stepped into the kitchen. "Lower your voice. Now."
"I'm perfectly calm." And I was. Calmer than I'd been in a month. "One question, and I want an honest answer for once in your life. Those reports — the neighbors, the school. Did any of that actually happen? Or did the two of you make it up?"
Silence.
Dylan's eyes flicked to Alyssa.
That was the answer.
Caleb had turned to watch his father. He was ten years old and he understood exactly what that look meant.
"Dad," he said. "Did you make it up?"
Dylan opened his mouth. Closed it. "We'll talk about this later. When it's just adults."
Caleb stepped back from me. He picked up his cereal bowl, walked it to the sink, and set it down with a small, deliberate click.
"I want to go home with Mom," he said. Not loud. The way you say something you already finished deciding. "Today. Right now."
"That's not what the order says," Alyssa said.
Caleb turned and looked straight at her. "I'm ten, not five."
Hearing my own words come out of my son's mouth cracked something open in my chest.
Dylan stared at the floor tiles.
"My attorney will call yours," I said. "We're done here for today."
I put my hand on Caleb's shoulder and steered him toward the front door. Dylan didn't move to stop us.
But as I reached the hall, he said one more thing.
"Erin. Some of those reports were real. You should know that before you walk into a courtroom."
I stopped. I didn't turn around.
"Then you'd better be ready to prove it," I said. "Because so am I."
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We walked out into the morning sun, and I didn't look back. But my hand was already reaching for my phone — and the voicemail from an unknown number that had come in at seven that morning, the one I still hadn't listened to, was suddenly the only thing in my head.
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