Chapter 1 - The Woman in the Hallway MirrorFor two grueling years, I singlehandedly dragged our family back from the edge of total collapse.
At His 40th Birthday Pool Party, My Husband Pointed at His Brother's New Wife and Sneered, "She's Obviously More Beautiful Than You"
The week Desmond lost his job at the logistics firm, I went back to work barely a month after giving birth to our second child, a boy we named Leo. There was no maternity leave left to take, no cushion of savings to lean on. I went straight back to eighty-hour weeks at my marketing firm, drowning in newborn cries at 3 a.m., a demanding toddler who didn't understand why Mommy was always tired, and a financial panic that never once let up long enough for me to catch my breath.
I watched myself erode, week by week, into someone I didn't recognize anymore. The woman who used to slick on crimson lipstick just to take out the trash, who closed six-figure marketing deals without missing a beat, who owned four pairs of heels she wore like armor — she disappeared somewhere in there, buried under yogurt-stained hoodies and dry shampoo. I told myself Desmond would notice everything I was giving up to keep us standing. I told myself he'd treasure it.
Instead, he turned my exhaustion into a weapon and used it against me for two straight years.
"You've really let yourself go lately," he'd say, tossing it off like a comment about the weather. "Have you even looked at Selene? She's the embodiment of pure elegance. Flawless silhouette, always floating around in those skirts. And then look at you. What a mess."
Selene was his younger brother Rowan's new wife. To Desmond, she was some kind of untouchable goddess. To me, she became a living, breathing reminder of exactly how far I'd fallen in my own husband's eyes, dragged out and compared to me every chance he got. I swallowed my pride every single time. My only real goal, most days, was simply to survive until bedtime.
One morning stands out clearer than the rest. Selene had stopped by the house the day before while Desmond was out in the garage, bringing over a massive chicken casserole. She'd told me I looked utterly drained, but her tone had been so gentle, so genuinely concerned, that she'd ended up folding an entire basket of our laundry before she left.
"Your sister-in-law came by yesterday," I mentioned to Desmond over coffee, trying to find something warm to say in a house that had gone cold between us. "Brought over a casserole. She's sweet."
"Mm," he said, not looking up from his phone. "Selene's always been like that."
"Rowan hit the jackpot," I added.
"Mm. Jackpot."
He never once lifted his eyes off the screen.
On my way to wrestle Leo into his velcro sneakers that same morning, I caught my reflection in the hallway mirror and froze. The woman staring back was a stranger to me. Faded gray hoodie, a dingy yogurt stain on the shoulder. Hair scraped back into yesterday's ponytail, held together by nothing but sheer stubbornness and dry shampoo. Dark bruised circles hollowed out both eyes.
Once, that same body had strutted into late dinners in heels that cost more than our grocery budget. Once, she'd closed deals worth more than our mortgage without breaking a sweat. She was still in there somewhere. Asleep, maybe. Or slowly running out of air.
As I unlatched the front door and felt the cold morning air hit my face, Desmond's voice carried out from the kitchen behind me.
"Hey, Sloane? Swing by the dry cleaners for my suits on your way back. Got a networking thing tomorrow."
I stopped dead in the doorway. Dry cleaning. Our account couldn't handle dry cleaning right now, not with the mortgage due in six days. And since when did Desmond go "networking" on a random Thursday morning?
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"Sure, Desmond," I called back, keeping my voice level.
But as I buckled the kids into their car seats a few minutes later, a cold, ugly knot of suspicion wrapped itself around my chest and refused to let go.
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